Letizia, 26 months old, chants the Teyata-Mantra

A true voice from the Heart:

Om Bekandze Bekandze
Maha Bekandze
Radza Samudgate Soha
May the many sentient beings
who are sick,
quickly be freed from sickness.
And may all the sicknesses of beings
Never arise again.


Loudon Wainwright III-Grey In L.A.

Just a little homesick...Greetings to Claudi!

#When it's grey in L.A. I sure like it that way
Cause there's way too much sunshine round here
I don't know about you I get so sick of blue skies
Whenever they always appear

And I sure love the sound of the rain pouring down
On my carport roof made out of tin
If there's a flood then there's gonna be mudslides
We all have to pay for our sin

And I suppose that they'll close canyon roads
And the freeways will all start to clog
And the waters will rise and you won't be surprised
When your whole house smells like your wet dog

When it's grey in L.A. it's much better that way
It reminds you that this town's so cruel
Yeah it might feel like fun when you're sportin' sunglasses
But really you're one more fool

And I'm just a chump
And this whole town's a dump
We came out here to dump all our dreams
Of making it big but we're stuck in a sig alert nightmare
That's just how it seems

And I suppose Laurie David sure knows
All those cars we drive heat up our earth
And sea temperatures rise and those constant blue skies
And brush fires can sure curb your mirth

Brad Grey's in L.A. yeah OK I should stay here
There's no place that's better i know
For a wannabe star stuck in a car
On a freeway with nowhere to go



To know this does not require study,
for years, a psychology of the brain
or reading a thousand books to help a self
that was never there to begin with
or even, for a seeking “me” that is spiritual,
meditation in a cave for a score of years.
No, nothing you could ever do or say
would bring you one iota closer to it
and it would never leave or go one micrometer further,
no matter what happened.
Even though this can be covered like a shade that mutes the sun
always the light shines even when it cannot be seen.
This, does not ever seek to control. It simply is not interested
Why would it be? What is, is infinitely more satisfying
and therein lies its ultimate power,
the mysterious power of pure potential. The birthplace of creation.
It can be contacted. It can be touched. It is you.
But is you without all the things that you call you.
Naked, transparent and gleaming.
Ironically, the entryway requires complete surrender. Total oblivion.
When all that you thought you were is removed, what is left?
That is what enters
What once seemed so solid, substantive and real
What drove actions and viewpoints and even our foothold in the world
Loosens, relaxes and unmoors itself
What is feels unendingly open, porous and vast
and out shines light and breath and nothingness.
This, is an unknowing, a deep stillness, a wide open space
in which the cosmos itself unfolds moment by moment.
Be still and embrace infinity.


living in gentleness

a deep sense of gratitude is held for 'the All' of lifetime experiences... from the moment of birth

the past is completely transmuted/changed...all the 'baby' steps taken (from the 'beginning of life' as a baby) moving in to one's life... are 'literally' changed/transformed...seen in a completely new light

only great fullness remains without any regrets or sadness

for me, to see that from the moment we are born....that Life *simply* happens to us... this was the doorway open for Gratitude to come in...

to see that from the moment we are born, every movement is without a choice...

the first lie told is not coming out of 'choice'....it is coming from a place within that fears the pain of 'love being removed'...so to speak...

we have no choice to remove ourselves from the environment/care giving situation that we find ourselves in... and so one automatic step leads to the next....and so on... in to our life situations... "building" our lives through the conditioning that is never anyone's choice... until awareness sets In!!

Having the awareness of this...is crucial to resting in awareness in the field of Now

the grace of gratitude is the fuel that maintains the fire of awareness

the body/person/essence is in a constant resting place...*In* Love (the formless dimension)

'Love' is elevated *way* beyond the egoic sense of love... Love *Is* the Now

bit by bit the old story of the past is brand new

a tale of nothing but Joy to be told

(seems crazy to the mind, but it is true)

the Heart takes over completely and runs the show...beautifully!

the child reclaims her eyes of wonder

she is re-born In her 'birthright' of unconditional Love
~  ~
\ () /


Rocks are cool

Rocks are cool. They’re solid, weighted, colorful, textured, and unique. Rocks are vessels. As humans we can use them for many purposes. Think about how many different uses and fascinations we apply to them. Some days we’re obsessed with collecting beautiful stones on the beach. Other days we’re pissed off by the rough pebbly ground that’s hurting our feet. Rocks can be gigantic (See my Petra picture) but they can also be teeny like grains of sand (I have a desert picture to post soon).

Last night I stood outside and threw medium sized drainage system rocks at a giant boulder-ish rock while I cried and stomped around. I transformed those rocks into an expression of anger that allowed me to  own my own feelings and not give space in my being to the influence of other people or sources. Throwing rocks was not about punishing myself or anyone else. It was about finding a way to simultaneously let go of and own a feeling purely for the purpose of myself and no one else.

While those rocks were left behind when I walked away, I’ve found that other rocks are for keeping. Today when I was thinking about my drainage rocks I thought about the small blue and white rock that’s been sitting in the potted plant by my window for most of the year. I received this rock from a very special friend of mine right before my birthday, not quite a year ago. He slipped the rock into my hand right before saying goodbye for the summer and through sentiment transformed it into a symbol of things he couldn’t have possibly put in my hand. It’s my very own symbol of our love, friendship, and transition. A token to take with me both for the sake of memories of a meaningful experience as well as a reminder of the lasting connection in our relationship.

I like rocks because they come from the Earth and they are full of possibilities.
Some rocks are for letting go of, others are for keeping- all are transformations- gifts that the earth gives us to use for whatever we might need.

~written by Maia Gibbons


Life = Love

the body is in All That Is

the heart is in the body

and Is
 connected to All of Life


melding hearts

in truth/reality We forgive every human for its 'history' and current unconsciousness, insanity... from Now, the space of Being

forgiveness is inherent in every human

forgiveness is not a thought or action... it is uncovered in the heart of your Being

forgiveness is the recognition that who We truly are is Love, Itself
(only the mind has been the "barrier" to this awareness)

through the awareness of what is unconscious... Our True freedom of Heart is expressed

There is always a paradox for the mind in understanding how the various facets of the diamond are unique, yet inextricably merged in the radiance of the One Crystal of Consciousness

because it cannot be understood with the mind... it is felt through the heart space

there is an essential nature within every female and within every male, that in a sense of speaking... is embraced and re-discovered in this awakening... and this aspect of embodiment or unfoldment is beautifull

It is a doorway in to Meeting the True Self; "having a heart to heart for the first time" !

it is through this meeting that the 'divine feminine and the divine masculine' merge

In this way, We are all able to meet through the Heart of Divine Awareness... face to face, hand in hand, heart to heart

~  ~


Photo Art by Catrin; words through :Doreen

I did a little investigation in to the words, that I have heard in my heart

always has been, always will be

and discovered that this phrase is, also, coming from 

Grandma Moses
Anna Mary Robertson Moses  1860-1961

"Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be."

"An extraordinary story: a hard-working farm woman bears ten children, raises the five that survive, and does heavy farm work until age 70, when she turns to painting pictures for 30 more years."



3 years later...Mama is coming home!!

Living like we ain’t got no mama
by Julie Daley on March 25, 2008

"One of my favorite songs is the BLACK EYED PEAS' Where Is The Love?

It’s a great song to dance to, run to and simply to listen to. The lyrics are powerful.

As I listen to the song, the two lines that keep grabbing my awareness are:

What’s wrong with the world, mama
People livin’ like they ain’t got no mamas

I love this description of people’s behavior today. There is so much violence, greed, pettiness, fear, distrust, lack of love…you name it, it seems as though the collective Ego is fighting for dear life to hang on in this time and sea of change. While there is much to smile about in this world, the line

People livin’ like they ain’t got no mamas

keeps ringing in my ears. What does it mean to live like we ain’t got no mama? What popped into my head is the stark clarity of what has happened as a result of the suppression of the Sacred Feminine.

In his very-popular current book, A New Earth, Eckhart Tolle speaks of the shunning of the Sacred Feminine that began centuries ago, and that has been internalized by humans to a degree, some lesser, some more. The Sacred Feminine was ‘rendered powerless’ through the developing male ego, and in time, became internalized in all humans to some degree.

What we see now is a world gone mad because it is out of balance. The Big Mama, the Sacred Feminine, has been silenced and put into darkness. The world has run amuck without a mama to keep balance with the Sacred Masculine.

When I hear this line, I realized it’s like we all know Mama is missing, but we don’t know where to find her.

But she is here…right here. She never left. We simply put her away into the dark recesses of our psyches so that we could stay alive.

We, as women, are more of the body and the earth, and less identified with our minds. As Tolle says, 'Because the ego was never as deeply rooted in woman, it is losing its hold on women more quickly than on men.' (pg 157)

What would our world be like if we let the Mama, and our own Sacred Feminine mama within, out again? How might we be different? How might the world be different? How might men change? How might our children grow up to see gender and love differently?

by Marite

What if you were to begin to trust your own Sacred Feminine nature and the body in which She lives and breathes?"



A Miraculous Love

Riding Her Dragon

the collective conditioning runs
so deep,
that many women have not realized that they have a "different voice" (check out: Carol Gilligan, author of 'In a Different Voice'

one woman 
(a poem with some notes on this writing that comes through "doreen")

i imagine today if more women’s hearts had been expressed (or viewed) in the past, through their art…imagine the centuries that missed out on this

{a reflection that comes through, noting that the condition of the past, where women were rarely recognized/honored for their contribution to society...(in ANY form)...just a fact of the matter}

[an example....the right to vote: from new zealand first giving this right to women in 1893...1902 australia, finland 1906, uk 1918 (for those, aged "30"), usa 1920, france 1944...(to name a few... majority of countries in the mid- twentieth century...up to Saudi Arabia with no vote for women]

of course, we cannot imagine the past or the future… in truth... [cos there exists only now]
there are no ‘what ifs’... no ifs ands or buts…In deed!!

[in other words, there is no arguing with what happens, and there is no searching for the future, cos it just doesn't exist, simply....]

there is another truth that exists, right here, right now... anything is possible..
the past is changed, and the future never comes

this heart is expressed in the fullness of its magnitude which is limitless
...in this moment

[the vision of endless possibilities is both contained in the present, and expressed from this moment....without having to project in to the 'future' that never comes]

['what' unfolds is a beautiful turning of the world in to right-side upness....one human being at a time... it can only happen this way... both one at a time/all together...]

clear seeing comes through... of 'how' the collective conditioning 'caused' both suffering and awakening

in a sense it comes through in stages... the personal conditioning dissolving on its own, first, then the 'person' experiences the dissolution of the collective 'egoic' conditioning based on the break down (over the centuries) of the patriarchical mind that suppressed the expression from the heart

Indeed! this is all about True Equality for all Beings!...
feeling through the heart what no longer serves...
exposing the mind's deepest lie
finding this truth in the core of the Heart


an excerpt from A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle

  ~*~   The suppression of the female principle especially over the past two thousand years has enabled the ego to gain absolute supremacy in the collective human psyche.   Although women have egos, of course, the ego can take root and grow more easily in the male form than in the female. This is because women are less mind-identified than men.   They are more in touch with the inner body and the intelligence of the organism where the intuitive faculties originate.   The female form is less rigidly encapsulated than the male, has greater openness and sensitivity toward other life-forms, and is more attuned to the natural world.

  ~*~  If the balance between male and female energies had not been destroyed on our planet, the ego's growth would have been greatly curtailed.   We would not have declared war on nature, and we would not be so completely alienated from our BEing.

  ~*~   Nobody knows the exact figure because records were not kept, but it seems certain that during the three-hundred-year period between three and five million women were tortured and killed by the "Holy Inquisition," an institution founded by the Roman Catholic Church to suppress heresy.   It was enough for a woman to show a love for animals, walk alone in the woods, or gather medicinal plants to be branded a witch, then tortured and burned at the stake.   The sacred feminine was declared demonic, and an entire dimension largely disappeared from human experience.    Other cultures and religions, such as Judaism, Islam, and even Buddhism, also suppressed the female dimension, although in a less violent way.   Women's status was reduced to being child bearers and men's property. Males who denied the feminine even within themselves were now running the world, a world that was totally out of balance.   The rest is history or rather a case of insanity.

  ~*~   Who was responsible for this fear of the feminine that could only be described as acute collective paranoia?

We could say:  Of course, men were responsible.    But then why in many ancient pre-Christian civilizations such as the Sumerian, Egyptian, and Celtic were women respected and the feminine principle not feared but revered? What is it that suddenly made men feel threatened by the female?  The evolving ego in them.  It knew it could gain full control of our planet only through the male form, and to do so, it had to render the female powerless.

  ~*~   We now have a situation in which the suppression of the feminine has become internalized, even in most women. The sacred feminine, because it is suppressed, is felt by many women as emotional pain.   In fact, it has become part of their pain-body, together with the accumulated pain suffered by women over millenia through childbirth, rape, slavery,
torture, and violent death.

  ~*~   But things are changing rapidly now.   With many people becoming more conscious, the ego is losing its hold on the human mind.   Because the ego was never as deeply rooted in woman, it is losing its hold on women more quickly than on men.

I am not speaking of Exclusion www.gangaji.org

Disengaging from past patterns www.neelam.org



Today, I am a tree.

My long, gangly limbs arc upwards and embrace the heavens

my roots spiral down into the dark, damp, dirt

a ganglia of a million beautifully tangled connections.

I am here because you breathed life into me. We are one.

Yesterday, I was a mighty Peregrine gliding on tufts of swirling air and wind

I targeted my meal below in the grassy marshes.

Now I am that struggling pregnant woman on the train, face lit with discomfort

as I am forced to stand "on my own two feet" even after a too

long 16 hour shift at Sal's Cafe. No one will handout his seat

and Icannot afford another mouth to feed.

I have been the pith on the inside of the lemon

and the filament in the bulb in your Grandma Ednda's attic.

I have seen worlds conquered and galaxies born.

As a snowflake, I once melted into my place exactly as fate demanded

As a rock, I held my ground for a thousand years till the rain and

sun and wind relieved me of my guard.

You know of which I speak - for we are both forged from the

particles of stars. In this blessed here - there is no other,

the whole universe has conspired to create this very moment.

I am - because you are, as if there's any difference.

This is the ground in which all else arises.

Where did I learn that the boundary of "me" ceased

at my skin, or my gender, or my race, country, species or even my thoughts.

Perhaps I did so because it seemed easier to indulge the lie then to steadily face

the immense pain and sorrow of my helplessness when confronted by the horrors of

of a world swalllowed by its own starvation, avarice, war, murder, and rape.

But really there is only an ounce of difference between true helplessness and surrender

which is where the freedome lies.

And so, tomorrow I am the leaf -- seduced at twilight by

the gentle wind into one final dance that lays me upon the altar of myself.

Twirl me where you will. I am given over in love and it rends my heart into an

infinity of nothingness that will once again nourish this

tree of life.

"Sunrise over India" by Catrin

photo art by Catrin; words through :Doreen



Freude Pur - Joyful Being: Liebend sein

Freude Pur - Joyful Being: Liebend sein: "It is not that our deepest longing goes to being loved.It is that our deepest longing goes to be loving. *** Es ist nicht, dass unser tiefst..."


Heart transmission

Every single human being is born on this planet as the embodiment of Love, Itself

as You Are liberation
You remember this

Love flows throughout all endeavors,
as a human being You are an effortless endeavor of Love...simply by the mere fact of your existence

.. [all thoughts about 'ANYTHING'...are figments of the dream][every label, every definition, every word!]...LOL!!Heart


through Love

what I accept, in myself, is a heart that

mourns, through intuition, for the unconscious enslavement of women by the egoic collective patriarchy...(loosening its grip, as we speak)
the knowing
that everyone Is 
equal, in the Heart
Yet, this voice of the feminine, that resides in each being...
arises to be shared in clarity

heart to heart...

with words, without words...
it comes...it transmits



invitation from Love

Unlock the secret chamber in your heart
and let Love

the power of Love

In experiencing the flow + wonder of Life ...

We allow the turning of the key...

as You are reading this, You are Opening the Door!



the tower of babel falls in to the arms of Love...

Our universal language


Conscious TV

must see interviews on Conscious TV

Jac O'Keeffe, 'Born to be Free'

Suzanne Foxton, 'No Body In Particular'

what women know through 'their hearts'

a man's true strength lies in his surrender to the feminine 

[quite opposite to the way of a noisy mind]

You may hear the ego say:  "this is weakness"

here lies the truth of bravery: 
allowing* the unfoldment of peace

throughout the heart of Being

sink In to the Ever Present passion of the Heart!

*allowing just happens


[a] love divine

the longing and its fulfillment expressed in this
infinite moment
from the bottomless depth of the heart
heart without chambers and walls, only endless open


no mind can be there

a mind disintegrates without a trace in its air


Mandi Solk 'The Joy of No Self'

Happy reNew Us!!  LOL!!!

click on title to meet Mandi and hear her interview on Conscious TV!!