living in gentleness

a deep sense of gratitude is held for 'the All' of lifetime experiences... from the moment of birth

the past is completely transmuted/changed...all the 'baby' steps taken (from the 'beginning of life' as a baby) moving in to one's life... are 'literally' changed/transformed...seen in a completely new light

only great fullness remains without any regrets or sadness

for me, to see that from the moment we are born....that Life *simply* happens to us... this was the doorway open for Gratitude to come in...

to see that from the moment we are born, every movement is without a choice...

the first lie told is not coming out of 'choice'....it is coming from a place within that fears the pain of 'love being removed'...so to speak...

we have no choice to remove ourselves from the environment/care giving situation that we find ourselves in... and so one automatic step leads to the next....and so on... in to our life situations... "building" our lives through the conditioning that is never anyone's choice... until awareness sets In!!

Having the awareness of this...is crucial to resting in awareness in the field of Now

the grace of gratitude is the fuel that maintains the fire of awareness

the body/person/essence is in a constant resting place...*In* Love (the formless dimension)

'Love' is elevated *way* beyond the egoic sense of love... Love *Is* the Now

bit by bit the old story of the past is brand new

a tale of nothing but Joy to be told

(seems crazy to the mind, but it is true)

the Heart takes over completely and runs the show...beautifully!

the child reclaims her eyes of wonder

she is re-born In her 'birthright' of unconditional Love
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Rocks are cool

Rocks are cool. They’re solid, weighted, colorful, textured, and unique. Rocks are vessels. As humans we can use them for many purposes. Think about how many different uses and fascinations we apply to them. Some days we’re obsessed with collecting beautiful stones on the beach. Other days we’re pissed off by the rough pebbly ground that’s hurting our feet. Rocks can be gigantic (See my Petra picture) but they can also be teeny like grains of sand (I have a desert picture to post soon).

Last night I stood outside and threw medium sized drainage system rocks at a giant boulder-ish rock while I cried and stomped around. I transformed those rocks into an expression of anger that allowed me to  own my own feelings and not give space in my being to the influence of other people or sources. Throwing rocks was not about punishing myself or anyone else. It was about finding a way to simultaneously let go of and own a feeling purely for the purpose of myself and no one else.

While those rocks were left behind when I walked away, I’ve found that other rocks are for keeping. Today when I was thinking about my drainage rocks I thought about the small blue and white rock that’s been sitting in the potted plant by my window for most of the year. I received this rock from a very special friend of mine right before my birthday, not quite a year ago. He slipped the rock into my hand right before saying goodbye for the summer and through sentiment transformed it into a symbol of things he couldn’t have possibly put in my hand. It’s my very own symbol of our love, friendship, and transition. A token to take with me both for the sake of memories of a meaningful experience as well as a reminder of the lasting connection in our relationship.

I like rocks because they come from the Earth and they are full of possibilities.
Some rocks are for letting go of, others are for keeping- all are transformations- gifts that the earth gives us to use for whatever we might need.

~written by Maia Gibbons